Dear Liberals, About Your Candidate

Dear Liberals, as some states are already starting to vote, many people further left of you are stuck with a dilemma. We went into the primaries knowing who the candidate would be because the DNC told us from the start. They didn’t even hide it this time. They barely hid it in 2016.

So, now, we are stuck with a candidate that, for a lot of us, literally the only reason to vote for him is that he is not Trump.

The only reason that a lot of us are going to vote for him is that every day, Trump makes it more and more clear that “Not Trump” is an important answer.

That said, a lot of us are going to be really pissed if you guys just take this opportunity to go back to “normal,” because while Biden is “not Trump” in a literal sense, from an overall systemic/policy standpoint, he’s only barely.

How the fuck are you going to foist a racist white man and a cop on a bunch of people who are literally in the middle of fighting against racist white men and cops and then get all pissy when they have reservations about voting for them?

“Do it for the queer and black folk who are suffering under Trump, not voting for Biden says you don’t care for them!” you scream in the faces of queer and black folk who have been raising the alarm since before the primaries began.

A system that consistently requires you to vote for the “lesser evil” because they are going to hurt you a little less, will always eventually result in evil.

What I am getting at, in my long-winded, fatigued, ranting sort of way, is this:

You are telling us we should vote for Biden because we have a better chance of influencing him. I better see people trying. I better see people just as angry about all the bullshit in March as they are now.

Liberals come out and say the same bullshit every time around and expect us to believe it even though if the policies and actions of the presidents we have elected are any solid indications, we have been operating under Republican presidents since Ragen.

Democrats have been a bit nicer to black folk, and queer folk, but cops are still killing black people in the streets, and police precincts are still labeling queer murders as low priority, and anyone who works to fix it is told they are hurting their cause pretty much by existing.

So, yes, I got my ballot and filled it in. Literally, the only thing Biden has going for him at this point is that he hasn’t been promising to subvert the constitution for the last three years running (and acting on it at every chance).

It is the end of September. Sometime in November, we will get the results of the election. I don’t care who wins, people need to be on the streets agitating and organizing. If their guy wins, you need to do everything you can to work to minimize the impact of his bullshit. After all, it will confirm the mandate that he thinks he has to be just terrible.

If your guy wins, you still need to be on the streets agitating, and organizing, to make this world a better safer place, and to actually do the thing you have been so good at proving is only lip service in past. Hold the asshole accountable.

At the end of the day, we have to pick between the guy who is currently wielding the system against us, and the guy who helped build that system. The only thing tipping the scales is that one of them is actually threatening to ignore the results of the electoral process.

There really isn’t a lot more to go into about the situation without making the idea of voting for Biden feel worse. The moment when Liberals should have flooded the streets is when the DNC made it clear that they didn’t care about the actual will of the people. The DEMOCRATS should have torn the Democratic party apart and rebuilt it starting in 2016, if not earlier.

I know that past performance does not automatically indicate future results, but sorry if a lot of people whose lives are most affected in all of this don’t have a lot of confidence in Liberals’ promises to hold their guy accountable.

A Comment on Martin Luther King Day

As we head into this weekend, with the Birthday of Martin Luther King Jr behind us, and the holiday in his name ahead of us, I just want to take a moment to remind everyone that the version of MLK that you learned about in school was most likely whitewashed bullshit.

Yes, he did speak of the brotherhood of men, and peace was his preferred path. Yes, the words you will see attributed to him on posters at your workspaces were his words.

They were only some of his words though. The cherry-picked quotes were not the only things that he said.

Martin Luther King Jr was a civil rights leader in a time when most peaceful measures had already failed. He was a pioneer in many of the methods and techniques used today by groups like BLM and Antifa. He preferred peace but also spoke out in anger when it was appropriate.

Every time I hear someone use him as a cudgel to shame those who are “acting out,” I remember a simple quote:

“A riot is the language of the unheard.”

He did not die because he was the peaceful Liberal lapdog that high school history classes would make him out to be. He died because he was a strong black leader, who felt that Humanity could do better and had the gall to say so. He understood at times that, though he favored peace, it was not always an option.

This is all I am going to say for now. If I see commentary from black folk or other people of color, I will try to signal boost it where I can. People that look like me have said enough over the years about MLK (and, quite frankly, a lot of what they said was bullshit, which is a major point in my post).

In a few days is the day we remember his life. If you get a chance, take a bit of time to actually learn about his life, his ideas, his methods, and put some of it into action.

The Contents of an IFAK (Starting to Think About First Aid)

Sorry I haven’t posted anything of substance in a while. I hope to change that. Among the other things that I post will be some articles on being prepared for the environments we may find ourselves in.

To those who haven’t been watching the news for the last few years, or who have never been to a protest, some of these articles may seem a bit paranoid.

To those who have been active in the various civil rights movements for longer, some of this will seem like old news.

A big part of preparedness though is thinking through what you need to do in case everything goes to hell.

So, my first article is going to be talking about first aid kits, and more specifically what the US Marine Corp carries in their default kit.


Because we can no longer depend on the idea that the opposition will not be using firearms. We can no longer depend on the idea that the police are going to render aid or allow emergency crews to render aid if there is an injury.

The over-militarization of our police departments, on more than one occasion, has lead to the obvious result of the police treating protest situations like a warzone.

First things first, I am going to start by listing the contents of a USMC IFAK (Individual First Aid  Kit). It will be a bit dry and too the point, but by just listing it out we will have a starting point.

Better yet, it will be written in a manner that might allow you to plug different things into google or Amazon more easily.

The IFAK is a first aid kit issued to Soldiers and Marines in the US Military, though the Army and Marines have slightly different load outs. It is also an example of items to consider when you are building your own emergency first aid kit.

The USMC IFAK contains the following:

A trauma kit containing:

* Bandage, Elastic, (2 EA) (field dressings)
* Bandage, Gauze, (2 Rolls)
* Tourni-Kwik Tourniquet, One Handed, (1 EA)
* Wound Pack (QuikClot), Hemostatic Treatment, (1 EA)

A Minor First Aid Kit containing:

* Bandage, Adhesive ¾” x 3″, (10 EA)
* Dressing, Burn 4″ x 16″, (1 EA)
* Povidone-Iodine Topical Solution. USP. 10% 1/2 Fl. Oz. Bt, (1 Bottle)
* Water Purification Tablet, Iodine 8 mg., (1 Bottle)
* Triangular Bandages 40″ x 40″ x 56″, (1 EA)
* Bandage, Adhesive 2″ X 4.5″, (5 EA)

Newer kits will also contain a pain relief pack that is pretty much a heavy dose of Acetaminophen because it is one of the few pain relievers available that are not also blood thinners. This is important in a combat environment where you may be prone to heavy bleeding and might find yourself waiting a while before you get any kind of proper treatment.

Newer kits also include an occlusive dressing (sometimes with valves), designed to cover a sucking chest wound.

Combat Corpsmen (medics) and specially trained “CLS” Marines carry more extensive packs, but they are specialized medical personnel. The list above is what the rank and file Marine carries.

As we have seen over the last decade or more, any protest activity has a chance to become violent. Any protest activity that directly targets Capitalism has a very high chance to become violent. Any protest activity that directly targets racism or Fascism is almost guaranteed to get violent.

Sadly, the most violent actors are likely to be the police themselves.
With recent media activity, many police departments are trying to change this image, but they don’t seem to be doing much to change the actual overall reality of things.
Fascists and White Nationalists are also starting to wise up to the fact that when we come, we are ready to defend ourselves against them if needed.

This means that not only do we need to be prepared to deal with actual combat scenarios, but we need to be prepared to deal with the aftermath as well. When a brother or sister falls, we need to get them out of there and get them stable. The stuff in the list above may seem simple, it may not seem like a lot, but it is a set of tools that anyone can learn to use.

In short: The gauze is for dressing and packing of wounds, and the elastic bandages apply pressure.

That is the most important part. Stop the bleeding. Tourniquets are for worse cases where you just can’t stop the bleeding or they are bleeding too fast to risk it.

The first aid process can be summarized as follows:

1. Get them off the X. Get them away from what is causing the harm.
2. Stop the bleeding.
3. Apply other measures as needed.

If you have time to prepare before a protest, make sure that as many people as possible are carrying portable first aid kits that have, at a minimum, the sort of things listed above. And, make sure as many people as possible are trained to use them: Especially the plastic bandages and gauze.

If your group is organized enough to do so, also try to have people who stay back away from the front lines of the fight who can deal with more serious injuries when they arise.
I will try to go into more detail with future posts. Let me know if there are any particular topics you want me to go over.

Note: While I was writing this, I found a resource that is very much worth taking a look at. The people over at Paper Revolution have an entire page related to resources for Street Medics and those who want to become Street Medics.

Check it out at:

Remember, and they have a similar notice on their page, what I have provided here is just a starting point. It is not, in and of itself, full training. The biggest thing we can do to prepare for any situation is to educate ourselves and train.

Word of the Day: Dissociation

Ok. I decided after some self-reflection that I want to try to get my “Word of the Day” series going again. I will admit up front that it won’t likely actually be daily. A few posts now and then may even be repeats from other blogs or from Facebook posts I made in past.

Some of the words will be political, and some will be social sciences related. I have decided though that some of them will also, from time to time, be related to mental health.

I’m from the US, and I realize that in the English speaking world as a whole, but especially in the US, mental health is not something we talk about. As such, it is not something most people understand, and it is easy to get isolated because of this.

So, this brings us to our current Word of the Day:


Dissociation is a mental health term. In short, it means your mind is separating you from your surroundings.

This is not always clinical. There is an entire range from heavy daydreaming to spacing out and legitimately not knowing where you are.

I chose to bring this up specifically because 1) I have been experiencing it quite a bit myself lately, and 2) I don’t want people to feel like they are alone.

The last week has been an ongoing experience of internal screaming intermixed with sleeping in and constant daydreams. If this describes you, you are not alone.

I have seen posts by cis allies, urging support and promising pain to those that aren’t gentle over the coming days. People promising to fight to their last breath. I am grateful for those posts that I have seen. They understand that we are afraid, but I am not certain they understand just how horrifying this is for us.

I understand the dearth of posts that I am seeing from my trans brothers and sisters. It’s hard to process. It’s hard to think about. I see a lot of prominent trans voices going dark on social media. It’s for their own mental health and safety.

I have a strong degree of anonymity and it’s still scary to me.

So, in summary: If you are going through a hard time and things don’t seem entirely real, don’t feel bad. It’s not just you.

If you find yourself sleeping as many hours a day as you can, and daydreaming the rest of the time, you are not alone.

When the anger, the frustration, the screaming in your head gets to be too much, the brain looks for ways to alleviate or avoid the stress. It’s a normal reaction.

If it becomes excessive, it can also be a sign that you need to seek help, even if that help is just a shoulder to cry on for a while.

We have come so far in the past decade, and it seems like the bastards in charge want to push us back more than a century. It is ok if you are scared, or frustrated, or just want to not deal with the world for a bit. Know that you are not alone.

If you are interested in more real info on the clinical aspects, check out the Wikipedia Article on Dissociation.


I started this post over a week ago. It was short and brief, and before I posted this, I had a few friends look over it and they both had similar comments. They said that I should try to expand a bit on some parts, and perhaps provide more resource links.

I spent a day or so staring at the screen trying to decide how to find the balance between explaining all of my thoughts, and leaving room to protect people’s feelings.

Then the news kept coming in. The shootings kept happening. Brazil. And now Trump is taking yet another not entirely surprising step towards trying to deny citizenship to an unknown number of people.

What I have above, still stands well on it’s own, and I am still uncertain how to improve it, but reality itself has taken steps to explain the thin bits for me.

Why am I afraid, even though I have a strong degree of anonymity? Because I have spiritual brothers and sisters who are no longer in the closet, and are in danger every day now. I have spiritual brothers and sisters who are still in the closet, and suffering more than I am, who now have no way of knowing when it will be safe to come out.

Even if I am somewhat anonymous, I haven’t actually buried my trail. I am not a “spook,” and the administration is already taking aim at communications outlets.

Brazil. Brazil held an election that was won by a landslide. It was won by a landslide because the majority of people who got out and voted were relatively wealthy, and wanted this to happen. Within three days of his victory, the new president had military personnel taking over schools for the sole purpose of deciding which classes were allowed and which were not, based on the whether or not the class was critical of Fascism and whether or not it was teaching the new government’s favored version of western history.

This is horrifying.

The Trump administration has been held in check by nothing more than legitimate American values and the fear that if they go too far, they will trigger a rebellion. The largest nation other than ourselves in this hemisphere has now stood up a Fascist regime and given it absolute power, and the two leaders are already saying good things about each other.

We can’t depend on American societal norms to protect us anymore.

The word Fascism descended from the Latin word fasces, or a bundle of sticks. They use the symbolism of a bundle of sticks being stronger together than apart, and as Fascists pull together so do Fascist nations.

Fascists in the US, where they still pretend to be oppressed, will be emboldened by every action taken by the Brazilian government from this point forward, and Brazil is moving fast already.

So, this is why I am scared. I am scared for myself. I am scared for my trans brothers and sisters. I am scared for those who don’t “look American.”

And, I am scared for my wife and son.

I am scared for my child who was born to an American father and a Japanese mother, who is unlikely to be seen as “American enough,” if things get that far.

I am scared because I don’t know if I have the resources to get them out.

I am scared because I don’t even know how to explain all of the things in my mind to my wife.

I am scared that our country is preparing to go up in flames and that the civil war that people seem scared is coming is the least of our worries.

It won’t be a civil war, at least not entirely.

Most “good citizens,” will stay on the sidelines and do as they are told. They will stand by as the fascists in power begin the cleans the undesirables from their lands. They will claim later that they just never saw the signs.

Guess what, we have been screaming about the signs for over a decade.

That screaming took on a fevered pitch in 2015 and has gotten louder everyday sense.

People like to use the concept of the canary in the coal mine. The canary is already dead. It died years ago, and the miners have started to drop as well.

People ask what they can do. I’m going to say here something similar to what I have said in past.

  1. If you are a citizen of any western nation, register to vote and vote. Vote for the party that is most likely to protect everyone. Vote for the party that is least likely to burn everything to the ground. Vote for the party that is not accusing others of being the enemy of the state.
  2. Understand that voting is only a stopgap. It is only a starting point. Think of it as bandages on a broken limb. They will slow the bleeding, and help to stave off infection, but more will still be needed to finish the healing process.
  3. Organize. Find others who think like you do and gather together to weather the storm. Remember though that you are not simply organizing for organization’s sake.
  4. Strengthen your communities. Look around you. Find what is broken. Find what is missing. Find what is needed. Start building up your communities so that if everything went to hell tomorrow you would not starve.
  5. Learn, and educate. Learn new skills. Teach others what you know. Agricultural, architectural, and medical knowledge are vital. Again, what does your community need to survive if everything else were to go away tomorrow?
  6. If you have skills that can be put to use, do so. Find projects that are working towards liberation and put yourself to work.
  7. If you are a member of a relatively protected class, use your voice. Speak up for those who are not protected. Speak out against abuses. Stand up against the powers that be and be the roadblock between them and those that they would deem undesirable.

I am running out of steam at the moment, but I want to make sure that this piece does get posted, so I will stop here.

Remember: We have to stand together and work to create the world we want. We have to insulate our local communities so that when it comes down to it we can protect ourselves.

Those of us with the emotional resources to do so need to do the heavy lifting. Those who are not scrambling just to survive need to focus on the long term. Those who are coming under direct fire will be too busy keeping themselves together.

And, coming back to where the post first started: If you are feeling the emotional weight of everything, and you find yourself tuning out more than you would like, you are not alone. It is an entirely normal reaction. This world is fucked up at the moment, and your brain is working to keep you in one piece. Reach out to others if you see that you need help. Reach out to your comrades if you see that they need help. Keep tabs on each other. Be brothers and sisters. Be comrades. In the realm of mental health, especially in what amounts to a battlefield environment, there is no such thing as checking on someone too much.

If we are going to survive this, we must do this together. The pretty words that the Fascists use to make their propaganda palatable are at least partially true. The bundle of twigs is stronger than the twig standing alone. The difference, what separates us from them, is that we understand that this metaphor expands beyond individuals to cultures. In diversity, we are stronger than in isolation.

Fuck racism, fuck sexism, fuck gender and neural normativity. We all have to stand together and take care of each other. The strong among us have to insulate the week. We have to show them that their philosophies will not destroy us. There is more to our evolution as a species than survival of the fittest.

I suppose that once I post this there is not much point in being on the fence or holding too many of my views when discussing things in the world.

Expect more posts in the future on subjects ranging from community building to operational security.

Editor’s Note: I am attempting to set the timestamp on this to match the day that I posted it to (November 2018) . I realized that the post still has merit, and that I should share it here. it is now 11 January 2019.

Welcome to the Community

Welcome to our community. Pardon my dust while I get things situated and figure out the ins and outs of running a blog and a Patreon page.

Going forward, blog posts will appear first in the Patreon Only feed on the Patreon site, and then a few days later on the website.

Some of the posts already on the website are a little old and have been brought over from other sites so that I didn’t lose them. They should give you a good idea of the range of things I am inclined to write about. I am always on the lookout for inspiration.

You are free to provide feedback on the Patreon site, or via comments on the blog. I have installed the Disqus plugin which will allow people to log in and comment with various social media logins. I look forward to the conversations. Dialogue is vital to communication, education, and organization. I hope to do some of each through this community.